Been a few months so...

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As far as Artist Trading Cards are going, I've collected some and really enjoyed finding gifts in the mail! Also, working on such small scale for people who are really only interested in eye candy has been an easy way to fake productivity.

Thanks.

Due to postage (because there are no RL trades around here), I'm going to be taking a break and use that little money for a different project next year: Photo a Day. [link]

I thought it would be nice to have a visual journal that forces me to focus on the trivial good stuff of life instead of only the bad stuff. If anyone else wants to give it a shot, I'd love to see it.

Online photo galleries are okay for long distance communication, but they don't really do it for me. I will end up making prints and building journals on top of that.

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There really isn't much to say. I'm mostly trying to get through the last bit of this year because next year is when I will be much busier and poorer. Plus the olympics are going to be happening at the same time I go back to using public transit so it's going to be a horrible disaster.

Full time school + job I hate + probable homework + new personal projects - any social life - any hope for the future - money = ???????

Will I die at the age of 25? Only time will tell.

In the meantime, I'm constructing some christmas gifts though really I have no idea. Apart from gifts, I need to do SOMETHING.

SOMETHING.

After a year of eye candy art, I need to make something meaningful. What can I do? I'd love to do either watercolour or oils, but I'm not sure where to get the motivation or imagination. I have a book that's supposed to make challenges but it's written by people who make junk art, not expression of soul.

My sketchbook is full of shame.

but it's difficult to create when there is no audience. How do I create a personal and amazing masterpiece when I know it's going to get shoved in a broken folder at the end of it? Maybe that's why I haven't done anything in so long; because there's no point.

If I make an expressive painting and put it away, why bother painting it at all? Why not keep it bottled up as usual? After all, throwing it in a pile is the same thing. Thoughts?